I think I'm learning that one of the most necessary qualities for starting a business, is the willingness to get it wrong. You have to be able to make decisions, even knowing that you might get it wrong or else you get stuck in paralysis. There is a time for research and a time for action. I tend to get stuck in the research phase and then struggle to take action because I'm worried that just around the corner I'm going to learn something new that would have saved me hundreds of pounds. The truth is, I might. But if I never take any action, I might end up walking in circles round and round the same patch of grass instead of setting out across a meadow of wild flowers.
I bought my website domain on Friday and I ended up buying another one today. Not a huge expense on the global scale of things but annoying all the same. I found out some new information today that made me want to do things slightly differently than I thought I was going to on Friday so I spent another £20 and did it an easier more streamlined way because to me it was worth the extra money. I struggle with decisions when it comes to money as I recognise I'm not actually making any yet! So spending lots to get a business off the ground is a little daunting. I also recognise that I may need to find some additional income stream as it will take a couple years to build up this business and start earning a decent salary. But I'm also conscious that I don't want to get side-tracked by exploring that right at the moment as I'm trying to get the initial business launched. I'm trying to rein in my crazy brain. I have a feeling that might be a lifetime thing.
I got back to reading about personalities and had to share this because it so accurately talks about the fears I struggle with. If you're an introvert, I highly recommend this website and this post in particular resonated with me because I couldn't believe how accurate it was. If you know what Myers Briggs Personality Type you are, you might find it interesting to. This is what it says about me:
"“One day it’ll be over… and what did I really do?”
Imagine you are born with a sense of purpose branded upon your soul. Imagine you know, from day one, you have a mission. A reason for existing.
Now imagine you lost the mission dossier… you can’t remember the briefing… there’s a black hole in your memory about what you are here to do. Not a single person around you knows the answer, and many laugh when you bring it up.
Welcome to the existential state of an INFP. Delusions of grandeur, you say? Yeah, they’ve heard that before — and every other painful thing the world lobs at the people who actually care. The ones who believe in ideals. The ones who think we can actually do something important here.
So INFPs realize very young that they’re going to have to explore and figure it out on their own. That sometimes, they’ll have incredible friends and allies, but a lot of the time, they’re going to have to do everything themselves.
No pressure.
I won’t say it, INFPs. You know the fear.
This fear gets endless fuel. It gets fuel when people wring out your creativity just to water it down and market it. It gets fuel when you pour out your dreams and beliefs at a world that doesn’t seem to notice. And yeah, it gets fuel from your deep worry that you’re not doing enough, from the days and weeks and seasons of life when you start things but don’t get them finished.
I’ll stop; you should never show too much of the monster in a scary scene. But I will show a little bit of what you don’t get, INFP: some frickin’ approval. I, for one, believe you can make something meaningful in the world — and you know how to do it. I don’t think you need to get in the history books to do something that matters, but if anyone can get into the history books, I think it’s you. It’s okay if it takes time and roundabout ways to get there.
I hope you can feel that for a second. Then I hope you drive it like a wooden stake into the heart of everything that’s holding you back."
That it exactly how I feel, so I'm going to drive a wooden steak into the heart of everything that's holding me back and keep pushing through all my panic and keep going.
My quote for today is “Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.” – Dale Carnegie
My photo for today is of my girls and a lovely horse we met today on our walk. Doesn't really tie into the theme for today but I'm sticking with it as I don't have a photo of my fear handy.