So the thought of starting a business is slightly terrifying for me. I've been wondering if some of my fear of failure comes from my conservative Christian upbringing. I think in my head I kind of associate failure with sin so I try to avoid it. I realise it's completely different, but somewhere in my warped psyche I think there is a slight association that I don't seem to be able to shake. I also know from reading lots of business books and watching successful business owners, that everyone fails, sometimes spectacularly, when starting a business. I'm not sure what I'm afraid of exactly but I think my biggest fear is that I'll spend a lot of money setting it all up and won't actually make any money. But then I suppose, I can think of it all as a big learning adventure and it will still be cheaper than going back to school and I'll probably learn more than I would any other way.
Another fear I have is that I'll just run out of enthusiasm one day and not be able to sustain momentum when it gets tough. I presume I'm not the only person to have these fears and I know if I want to give it a go, I just have to push past them. Another challenge I have as I'm not a pushy person so even pushing past my own fears feels out of character for me. Here's where a good dose of "Karen" would come in handy.
I came across this quote today and I've no idea where it came from, but I have it written in my brain dump section of notes. "Stop assuming perfection is the destination." I think I need to frame that and hang it on the wall as I struggle with wanting to do things perfectly and when I can't, I get discouraged. Obviously if I start a business, I am not going to be perfect at everything especially not right away. I hope I can hang on to the learning in each situation rather than expecting myself to do things perfectly and I hope I can keep my sense of humour because as long as I can laugh, I can keep going.
My photo for today is of me and the girls eating Ben and Jerry's. Something I can do perfectly and no we didn't eat all of it in one sitting although it was tempting. ASDA has a special on Ben and Jerry's at the moment (£2.00 off per tub) and I do think they have perfection down to an art, especially in their Netflix and Chill flavour.
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