Today Amity went back to school. Both of my children have been off school since March due to Covid and going back when everything is all different has been hard for her. They now just stay in their classroom for everything and she has to sit next to a boy which she was most disgusted about. She said her new teacher was nice in the morning and mean by the afternoon and she told me that it was the worst day ever at school. Isla goes back tomorrow and she had a slight meltdown this evening as she got her timetable and was down to do Spanish instead of French. I emailed her form tutor and miraculously got an answer back from her French teacher very shortly to say there had been a mix-up with their software but she is definitely doing French not Spanish so that was one panic solved. It's going to be hard for her going back too as now all her lessons are being taught in forms and she's not in the same form as her best friend so will have limited contact with her at school.
Everything has changed and it's hard to deal with sometimes. I know even for me, it all gets a bit on top of me some days. I spent six hours today breathing through my mask while I shopped with Isla. Yes, I realise six hours of shopping is excessive but we don't get out much and she hadn't been to a mall since January. Some of the changes put in place to help prevent the spread of Corona don't even make sense. I had to laugh when our waiter handed me my bill (so he touched it and I touched it, then he had me tear off my own receipt so I didn't get his germs that I had just touched on the other piece of paper. Maybe these little things help, but it seems like they probably don't at all, they're just there for psychological reasons so we feel safer even though they're not actually doing anything to protect us. Sometimes an illusion is a positive thing and can help us navigate a situation that we might otherwise avoid.
I need to create some illusions for myself when it comes to starting a business. I'm trying to think of creative ways to catapult myself into success even when my name is Karen. I did have a brief panic the other day when I thought about advertising myself and my name and whether that would put anyone off hiring me. I think, at the moment at least, I'm ok in this country as it only seems to be the younger generation who have heard of Karen meme's and most middle-aged or older people either haven't heard or don't care. So far anyway, I haven't had any embarrassing encounters due to my name and if someone doesn't want to hire me due to it, then they weren't my ideal customer anyway.
My quote for today is “Don't part with your illusions. When they are gone you may still exist, but you have ceased to live.” by Mark Twain.
My photo is of Isla masked and armed with an overpriced back to school Billionaire's Sundae from Hotel Chocolate. A decadent illusion of happiness (or was it really edible happiness?) to revive us while we shopped.
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